Kill me please!

Some of you might be wondering what i do everyday to kill time before 5pm EVERYDAY. Oh well i will be very very honest with you..you probably think that i do not have a life...come on who does have one if you got stranded in Tassie doing nothing for more than 3 months =_=''

I wake up at 10.30 every morning, brush my teeth wash my face. That took less than 5 minutes. Then, turn on the computer, sometimes no need to turn on because Stan left it on the whole night. One step lesser which gives me another 2 seconds to kill omg!!!! First thing, sign in to MSN then check my hotmail for jobssssss. No news from job alert then delete other junk mail as well. Second thing to do i'm on facebook checking out other peoples's photos. These days people tend to be less active on facebook arrrrgh kill me please. Few minutes more to kill for a day really kills me man! Do me a favour people upload more photos for miss ivy eng to see because she has nothing better to do. Watch old movies and series until about 1pm then can have lunch with Stan. Sometimes i'll walk to town to have lunch with him that's the thing i look forward the most everyday because by walking i kill more time haha!

After Stan's lunch break i'll be all alone again. Doing the same thing, job search, you tube and laundry. Sometimes too lazy to iron clothes i call my mom or my sister. Phone call helps a lot to kill time i always feel that time flies when i'm on the phone. There goes my phone bills......
Random people coming in to the room and talk to me..leaving harsh words..use your brain please! Take me for granted who do you think you are........wtf!!!! Do not disturb shhhhhhh go do your own things la wtf!

I never left the room unless a toilet break until 5pm when i have to go down and work till late night. That is the most enjoyable time in a day because i get to see people and talk to them and move around a bit how sad! I miss home terribly...my sister asked me if i wanna move to Melbourne to stay with her. To be honest i want to...with Stan too but i know it's impossible for the time being. All i have to do it wait..until he's ready! Home is where the heart is do you agree? I had a dream last night..i was back in Malaysia and plenty of nice food is waiting for me on the table and i was really really hungry...and then suddenly i woke up to find myself still at this miserable place.

If you wanna ask me why i still want to be here..why not just leave..i can only say i can't. It's not an easy decision to make because of all the commitments i have currently. I envy those of you who can make simple decisions for yourself. Why it has to be so difficult for me? I know this place is hard to get a job i know there are far more opportunities out there in Melbourne, Sydney and Brisbane. Do you think i should leave this place?

How i wish i'm home at least i'm with my family. At least there are things i feel very comfortable with..at least my friends are Malaysians..at least i eat nasi lemak for breakfast..at least i can feel the love around me..at least i like the way Malaysians communiciate...at least i do not have to do shit loads of favours.....

If you think i have some other better things to do please do suggest. Thank you!