Zero chance given

So much things had happened to me lately, both good and bad which almost lead me to reconsider things and head home to be with my family. Home is where the heart is thats very true.....

I know many of my friends are stucked in a situation where they can't get the job they want. All i want to say is please don't give up..never! Not because i'm showing off my job nor said is easier than do. I was floating around for 6 months plus before i got one...not exactly a desired one but get your feet on the door is what i was thinking. Even if it's not part of your desired career pathway but it would be a good starting point in not asking money from your parents right? I'm not really that comfortable with my current job though i wanted it so badly before. Trust me..even if you got the job you want you'll still whinge about something else. That's life! Nobody talks to me at work..only when they need me to do something. They use sticky notes instead of telling me on my face what they want me to do. They group themselves procrastinating about their kids and weekend plans and i'll be just sitting at the other end of the bench feeling absolutely miserable. I'm not an anti-social person but i just can't fit myself in......placement experience was one of the things i miss the most in that kind of environment....do i have an attitude problem or it is just them ignoring me all the time T_____T

A whole new language

First of all, no offence to all Facebookers, i judged based on what i saw on my news feed everyday. It really does drive me nuts when the first page on my facebook account is fulled with quizes people did in English and Mandarin. This is Ivy's page abuse already T___T too bad police won't take my case *cries*

If you are a Facebooker, you must be familiar with this trendier Facebook-friendly terms to describe different individual (might be your friends or friends' friends yadda yadda) on FB.

Face-brag: Use FB only as a way to brag about your great new job, hot date last weekend, brilliant child or pets or even fancy cars. I mean that's awesome okay? But the rattling sound you now hear is our eyes rolling back in our skulls.

Face-goggler: People who post misleading profle photos of themselves on FB. This is still alright to me because i have not come across any so far phew!

Face-woe: The opposite of Facebrag. this is the dark habit of ONLY updating your FB status area with sad or depressing news--- ''Ivy Eng is crying''--in an effort to get 50 comments of support from your friends. Not in my case because people can't be bothered why i cry *screams*


Face-crack: Ahh, the phenomenon of being addicted to FB. You're just dying to log on now and take another quiz or send another beer, poke another friend or tag another photo from high school reunion, aren't you? Just say no!!! Speaking of quiz, do your friends really judge friendship based on '' How well do you know Ivy Eng'' quiz? Not to be mean but if they really do say goodbye to your friends la okay? What if you really score 100% does that mean you'll get a prize from your friend by being a TRUE friend gosh i wish i would never have to see those quizes anymore hahahaha!

And then there's Twitter. FB isn't the only social media phenomenon that is magically coining a new language. Look no further than its evil cousin, Twitter, for whole new set of fun words, including these:

Twitface: A term of contempt fot those synch Twitter and FB and then constantly update both throughout the day.

Tweetwalking: Twittering while asleep (Seriously stop going to bed with your Blackberry)

Twidiot: Any Twitter user who can't string togther a grammatically correct sentence in 140 characters. (I did this very often i guess. what a shame!)

I like FB but it's just the abusiveness of FB these days make me feel like shouting ''Get a life people!!!!" Sorry if this post pissess you off my dear dear friends =)))

So take a look at me now

Ivy Eng is Si Gemuk!!!! Omg i cannot tahan looking at myself getting fatter especially the face..my face!!! Why my face and my body are not proportionate bloody hell! I would prefer a fat face with a fat..like really fat body rather than aiyooooo bloody hell don't know how to say! Which one do you prefer? Fat face or fat body??

Cannot take nice nice pictures already omg thats why i never upload pictures on Facebook anymore..probably freak you out my friend T_____T When my friends think of me they would still remember the not-so-fat Ivy Eng which is a compliment at least.

I read Pris' latest entry. I agree with what she said. Living in a big city is good when you have close friends hanging around. I envy big cities for only two reasons: shopping and dining =p but at this stage a bit difficult for me to live in big cities with zero savings *cries* Thats why have to live in Tassie to practise self-control before i totally lost it at all LOL! Speaking of close friends i miss my friends again =(((( why you girls and boys have to live so farrrrr awayyyyyy from me adui!!!!! Don't you know i miss all the joy and laughter that we had in that 2 and a half years!!!!!

Kthxbye! (I know i know..fat right??? OMG i can hear everyone laughing at my big and flat face already *screams*)

My first complain

Working life sucks!!!! Sucks big big time *cries*

Actually i should clarify..working life is good it's just the working environment is so disappointing i would say =(

I'm the only Asian in the entire lab and i think my presence is not much welcomed here wtf! the students working here are all very nice but the scientists omg omg OMG think i'm invisible most of the time. However, i'm not upset. Like i said, i just want the experience and get paid thats all i'm asking for so who cares hahaha! The scientists in my department always have that kinda look at me (the only bloody Asian ) as if i should not be working there T_______T

I miss doing my placement in Melbourne. At least everyone is willing to teach me what i should know. Not like this lab which i always have that kinda feeling that i'm indeed a very annoying person siiiiiigh! Is that wrong to ask questions? I ask because i do not want to make mistakes okay??

I'm glad i'm just a casual =)

Look forward to my new home sweet home =)

I got a job

I'll be working in a lab starting tomorrow yeay!!! Haematology is always my favourtie subject so see me working in haem okie dok!

Two part-times equals a full-time job i'm very happy with that =)

Darl bought us each a new phone teehee!!!!! Thanks very much but the phone is wayyyy too fancy for a silly girl like me =p

I miss my friends every now and then. Sometimes i wish they have never left this place because when it's girlfriends day i don't know who to call. I guess i have to spend some money on air tickets to have our girlfriends day T_____T

Happy Father's Day Papa! Love you lots!!!!!

Chocolatier

I'm being bad because i abandoned my blog =)

It was Stan's birthday yesterday but still he had to work day and night. In order to make it up to the birthday boy, we (as in the staffs and friends) had an early celebration. Krista and Bobby were kind enough to buy him something really USEFUL, something that would help him achieve his dreams and do-ivy-a-favour prezzie hahaha!

Yes yes yes it's a bee skipping rope the couple bought from the Honey Farm! However, a day after they gave him that present, Stan's Uncle Toby bought him this.

Adui...how can like that??!!!! (But these truffes are gorgeous!!!!!!)

Diamonds are girls' best friend but let me introduce Godiva to you ladies! Your best friend FOREVER!!!! Your best friends during your bad days hahahaha!! When you are left with nothing in this world but money Lady Godiva can be your one and only friend =)))))))) I'm not a big fan of chocolates as you may have already know but try this one....it's quite pricey but worth the money ladies!

Kill me please!

Some of you might be wondering what i do everyday to kill time before 5pm EVERYDAY. Oh well i will be very very honest with you..you probably think that i do not have a life...come on who does have one if you got stranded in Tassie doing nothing for more than 3 months =_=''

I wake up at 10.30 every morning, brush my teeth wash my face. That took less than 5 minutes. Then, turn on the computer, sometimes no need to turn on because Stan left it on the whole night. One step lesser which gives me another 2 seconds to kill omg!!!! First thing, sign in to MSN then check my hotmail for jobssssss. No news from job alert then delete other junk mail as well. Second thing to do i'm on facebook checking out other peoples's photos. These days people tend to be less active on facebook arrrrgh kill me please. Few minutes more to kill for a day really kills me man! Do me a favour people upload more photos for miss ivy eng to see because she has nothing better to do. Watch old movies and series until about 1pm then can have lunch with Stan. Sometimes i'll walk to town to have lunch with him that's the thing i look forward the most everyday because by walking i kill more time haha!

After Stan's lunch break i'll be all alone again. Doing the same thing, job search, you tube and laundry. Sometimes too lazy to iron clothes i call my mom or my sister. Phone call helps a lot to kill time i always feel that time flies when i'm on the phone. There goes my phone bills......
Random people coming in to the room and talk to me..leaving harsh words..use your brain please! Take me for granted who do you think you are........wtf!!!! Do not disturb shhhhhhh go do your own things la wtf!

I never left the room unless a toilet break until 5pm when i have to go down and work till late night. That is the most enjoyable time in a day because i get to see people and talk to them and move around a bit how sad! I miss home terribly...my sister asked me if i wanna move to Melbourne to stay with her. To be honest i want to...with Stan too but i know it's impossible for the time being. All i have to do it wait..until he's ready! Home is where the heart is do you agree? I had a dream last night..i was back in Malaysia and plenty of nice food is waiting for me on the table and i was really really hungry...and then suddenly i woke up to find myself still at this miserable place.

If you wanna ask me why i still want to be here..why not just leave..i can only say i can't. It's not an easy decision to make because of all the commitments i have currently. I envy those of you who can make simple decisions for yourself. Why it has to be so difficult for me? I know this place is hard to get a job i know there are far more opportunities out there in Melbourne, Sydney and Brisbane. Do you think i should leave this place?

How i wish i'm home at least i'm with my family. At least there are things i feel very comfortable with..at least my friends are Malaysians..at least i eat nasi lemak for breakfast..at least i can feel the love around me..at least i like the way Malaysians communiciate...at least i do not have to do shit loads of favours.....

If you think i have some other better things to do please do suggest. Thank you!