Zero chance given

So much things had happened to me lately, both good and bad which almost lead me to reconsider things and head home to be with my family. Home is where the heart is thats very true.....

I know many of my friends are stucked in a situation where they can't get the job they want. All i want to say is please don't give up..never! Not because i'm showing off my job nor said is easier than do. I was floating around for 6 months plus before i got one...not exactly a desired one but get your feet on the door is what i was thinking. Even if it's not part of your desired career pathway but it would be a good starting point in not asking money from your parents right? I'm not really that comfortable with my current job though i wanted it so badly before. Trust me..even if you got the job you want you'll still whinge about something else. That's life! Nobody talks to me at work..only when they need me to do something. They use sticky notes instead of telling me on my face what they want me to do. They group themselves procrastinating about their kids and weekend plans and i'll be just sitting at the other end of the bench feeling absolutely miserable. I'm not an anti-social person but i just can't fit myself in......placement experience was one of the things i miss the most in that kind of environment....do i have an attitude problem or it is just them ignoring me all the time T_____T

A whole new language

First of all, no offence to all Facebookers, i judged based on what i saw on my news feed everyday. It really does drive me nuts when the first page on my facebook account is fulled with quizes people did in English and Mandarin. This is Ivy's page abuse already T___T too bad police won't take my case *cries*

If you are a Facebooker, you must be familiar with this trendier Facebook-friendly terms to describe different individual (might be your friends or friends' friends yadda yadda) on FB.

Face-brag: Use FB only as a way to brag about your great new job, hot date last weekend, brilliant child or pets or even fancy cars. I mean that's awesome okay? But the rattling sound you now hear is our eyes rolling back in our skulls.

Face-goggler: People who post misleading profle photos of themselves on FB. This is still alright to me because i have not come across any so far phew!

Face-woe: The opposite of Facebrag. this is the dark habit of ONLY updating your FB status area with sad or depressing news--- ''Ivy Eng is crying''--in an effort to get 50 comments of support from your friends. Not in my case because people can't be bothered why i cry *screams*


Face-crack: Ahh, the phenomenon of being addicted to FB. You're just dying to log on now and take another quiz or send another beer, poke another friend or tag another photo from high school reunion, aren't you? Just say no!!! Speaking of quiz, do your friends really judge friendship based on '' How well do you know Ivy Eng'' quiz? Not to be mean but if they really do say goodbye to your friends la okay? What if you really score 100% does that mean you'll get a prize from your friend by being a TRUE friend gosh i wish i would never have to see those quizes anymore hahahaha!

And then there's Twitter. FB isn't the only social media phenomenon that is magically coining a new language. Look no further than its evil cousin, Twitter, for whole new set of fun words, including these:

Twitface: A term of contempt fot those synch Twitter and FB and then constantly update both throughout the day.

Tweetwalking: Twittering while asleep (Seriously stop going to bed with your Blackberry)

Twidiot: Any Twitter user who can't string togther a grammatically correct sentence in 140 characters. (I did this very often i guess. what a shame!)

I like FB but it's just the abusiveness of FB these days make me feel like shouting ''Get a life people!!!!" Sorry if this post pissess you off my dear dear friends =)))

So take a look at me now

Ivy Eng is Si Gemuk!!!! Omg i cannot tahan looking at myself getting fatter especially the face..my face!!! Why my face and my body are not proportionate bloody hell! I would prefer a fat face with a fat..like really fat body rather than aiyooooo bloody hell don't know how to say! Which one do you prefer? Fat face or fat body??

Cannot take nice nice pictures already omg thats why i never upload pictures on Facebook anymore..probably freak you out my friend T_____T When my friends think of me they would still remember the not-so-fat Ivy Eng which is a compliment at least.

I read Pris' latest entry. I agree with what she said. Living in a big city is good when you have close friends hanging around. I envy big cities for only two reasons: shopping and dining =p but at this stage a bit difficult for me to live in big cities with zero savings *cries* Thats why have to live in Tassie to practise self-control before i totally lost it at all LOL! Speaking of close friends i miss my friends again =(((( why you girls and boys have to live so farrrrr awayyyyyy from me adui!!!!! Don't you know i miss all the joy and laughter that we had in that 2 and a half years!!!!!

Kthxbye! (I know i know..fat right??? OMG i can hear everyone laughing at my big and flat face already *screams*)

My first complain

Working life sucks!!!! Sucks big big time *cries*

Actually i should clarify..working life is good it's just the working environment is so disappointing i would say =(

I'm the only Asian in the entire lab and i think my presence is not much welcomed here wtf! the students working here are all very nice but the scientists omg omg OMG think i'm invisible most of the time. However, i'm not upset. Like i said, i just want the experience and get paid thats all i'm asking for so who cares hahaha! The scientists in my department always have that kinda look at me (the only bloody Asian ) as if i should not be working there T_______T

I miss doing my placement in Melbourne. At least everyone is willing to teach me what i should know. Not like this lab which i always have that kinda feeling that i'm indeed a very annoying person siiiiiigh! Is that wrong to ask questions? I ask because i do not want to make mistakes okay??

I'm glad i'm just a casual =)

Look forward to my new home sweet home =)

I got a job

I'll be working in a lab starting tomorrow yeay!!! Haematology is always my favourtie subject so see me working in haem okie dok!

Two part-times equals a full-time job i'm very happy with that =)

Darl bought us each a new phone teehee!!!!! Thanks very much but the phone is wayyyy too fancy for a silly girl like me =p

I miss my friends every now and then. Sometimes i wish they have never left this place because when it's girlfriends day i don't know who to call. I guess i have to spend some money on air tickets to have our girlfriends day T_____T

Happy Father's Day Papa! Love you lots!!!!!

Chocolatier

I'm being bad because i abandoned my blog =)

It was Stan's birthday yesterday but still he had to work day and night. In order to make it up to the birthday boy, we (as in the staffs and friends) had an early celebration. Krista and Bobby were kind enough to buy him something really USEFUL, something that would help him achieve his dreams and do-ivy-a-favour prezzie hahaha!

Yes yes yes it's a bee skipping rope the couple bought from the Honey Farm! However, a day after they gave him that present, Stan's Uncle Toby bought him this.

Adui...how can like that??!!!! (But these truffes are gorgeous!!!!!!)

Diamonds are girls' best friend but let me introduce Godiva to you ladies! Your best friend FOREVER!!!! Your best friends during your bad days hahahaha!! When you are left with nothing in this world but money Lady Godiva can be your one and only friend =)))))))) I'm not a big fan of chocolates as you may have already know but try this one....it's quite pricey but worth the money ladies!

Kill me please!

Some of you might be wondering what i do everyday to kill time before 5pm EVERYDAY. Oh well i will be very very honest with you..you probably think that i do not have a life...come on who does have one if you got stranded in Tassie doing nothing for more than 3 months =_=''

I wake up at 10.30 every morning, brush my teeth wash my face. That took less than 5 minutes. Then, turn on the computer, sometimes no need to turn on because Stan left it on the whole night. One step lesser which gives me another 2 seconds to kill omg!!!! First thing, sign in to MSN then check my hotmail for jobssssss. No news from job alert then delete other junk mail as well. Second thing to do i'm on facebook checking out other peoples's photos. These days people tend to be less active on facebook arrrrgh kill me please. Few minutes more to kill for a day really kills me man! Do me a favour people upload more photos for miss ivy eng to see because she has nothing better to do. Watch old movies and series until about 1pm then can have lunch with Stan. Sometimes i'll walk to town to have lunch with him that's the thing i look forward the most everyday because by walking i kill more time haha!

After Stan's lunch break i'll be all alone again. Doing the same thing, job search, you tube and laundry. Sometimes too lazy to iron clothes i call my mom or my sister. Phone call helps a lot to kill time i always feel that time flies when i'm on the phone. There goes my phone bills......
Random people coming in to the room and talk to me..leaving harsh words..use your brain please! Take me for granted who do you think you are........wtf!!!! Do not disturb shhhhhhh go do your own things la wtf!

I never left the room unless a toilet break until 5pm when i have to go down and work till late night. That is the most enjoyable time in a day because i get to see people and talk to them and move around a bit how sad! I miss home terribly...my sister asked me if i wanna move to Melbourne to stay with her. To be honest i want to...with Stan too but i know it's impossible for the time being. All i have to do it wait..until he's ready! Home is where the heart is do you agree? I had a dream last night..i was back in Malaysia and plenty of nice food is waiting for me on the table and i was really really hungry...and then suddenly i woke up to find myself still at this miserable place.

If you wanna ask me why i still want to be here..why not just leave..i can only say i can't. It's not an easy decision to make because of all the commitments i have currently. I envy those of you who can make simple decisions for yourself. Why it has to be so difficult for me? I know this place is hard to get a job i know there are far more opportunities out there in Melbourne, Sydney and Brisbane. Do you think i should leave this place?

How i wish i'm home at least i'm with my family. At least there are things i feel very comfortable with..at least my friends are Malaysians..at least i eat nasi lemak for breakfast..at least i can feel the love around me..at least i like the way Malaysians communiciate...at least i do not have to do shit loads of favours.....

If you think i have some other better things to do please do suggest. Thank you!

Karaoke anyone?

It's freezing freezing cold in Tassie these few days!!! I could not feel my fingers and toes anymore!!! I wrapped myself up like a california roll EVERYDAY =)))) I want to teleport back to Malaysia and when i feel it's too hot then i teleport back here again and there again and here again...........genie grant me my wish pretty please!

My hometown friends were asking if i am getting married soon...what do you think? No signal given so it's not true okay??!!!!! Hahahaha you girls wanna be my bridesmaid or just want the ang pow weiiiii!

I'm addicted to Fish Leong's new album. Omg they are ALL so nice..very pleasant for my ears and yours too i believe. When you listen to it it makes you really wanna cry awwwwwww.....

This is one of my favourtie song and MV =)



If you watch the new Taiwanese drama 敗犬女王 (My Queen), this song would be played at the end of every episode okie dokie? The drama is super super nice okay? Pris are you watching it too?

There is another song of Fish Leong which is also very nice:



I dedicate this two songs to all my friends especially for those who believe in Love and crazily in love haha! Cherlyn and Carmen when are we going to blast the karaoke speakers again??!!!!

The biggest circus EVER!

Bonjour! Bonjour!

We are going to watch Cirque du Soleil under the Grand Chapiteau in Docklands, Melbourne in May. I'm sooooo excited now =)))) can't wait already!!! The show name is Dralion means dragon and lion. Dragon represents the Eastern while lion represents the Western. Dralion derives much of its inspiration from Eastern philosophy with its perpetual quest for harmony between humankind and nature. Suspended in time between the past and the future, Dralion is a celebration of life and the four elements that maintain the natural order: air, water, fire and earth. It is a dynamic performance that transcends the boundaries of the imagination and leads us into a dreamscape with a new and sparkling perspective.

There will not be any pictures of the circus uploaded here because no cameras are allowed =(
However, visit the official website http://www.cirquedusoleil.com/ or search the video clips on You Tube to know more about this.

I discovered something new!

It's been 3 months now there is still no news regarding job hunting. Is that so difficult to just offer me a job? Why does it have to take such a long time to reply *cursing* I got so many plans in my head and i really need a bloody full time job to fulfill this...of course it's not about shopping and buying branded goods (i can hear you bitching about the impossibility rawrr!!!) But that's true..forget about buying another LV or Chanel or Tiffany because there's a better place to drop the money hahahaha! I'm not gonna tell unless you ask *whistles*

I took Vincent's advice in getting a Bvlgari for darling. Cost me a bomb wth but still affordable at least to me =))))) I walked around the Melbourne CBD..got lost and could not find Collin Street apa ni?? Wore the wrong pair of shoes for shopping...hell it hurt so much and 2 small piece of flesh actually came off *crying in pain* But all is worth i would say.....time to earn back what i have spent in a day.

Met up with Carmen for dinner at Chinatown. We went to this SzeChuan restaurant called Tian Fu. My gosh the food was so spicy that it burnt our lips numb our tongue and taste buds but it's freaking freaking dellicious *two thumbs up* The place is crowded almost everyday and it is located at a not-so-obvious part of Chinatown. Good food is always hiding somewhere we just have to dig them up =))))

I went for a haircut too at one Korean hair saloon. You know when a chicken tries to communiciate with a duck. That was what happened to me and the stylist..she kept 'oooh and oooh' whenever i said something so i thought she understood what i said but it turned out to be no she did not understand. Hmmph but with sufficient body language i made her finally realized that yes i want a haircut...trim it layered and thin..that simple only =p I was undecided if i should perm or cut...i have kept my hair long since n-years ago..could not remember the last time i had short hair =)))))) I still remember i cried everytime i got my hair chopped it was like the biggest step i gave in my life *sweat*

Last module of Chartered Accountant for Stanley please give in your best!!! Do your best and God will do the rest! I have been the person like the ancient China had...someone to accompany the crown prince while he studies..yes i am! I said the wrong word once ''tai zi'' (crown prince) became ''tai jian'' (the male servant without the thing that serves the emperor or emperess ha!) Gee i almost got myself killed by darling oops!!!

Bak Kut Teh time ciaoz!!

Goodbye Esther

This is to certify that Esther Tan XXXXX has achieved a successful escape from the Me Wah Restaurant in Launceston and this escape being witnessed by the remaining inmates in MW.......

Yes my one and only Penangite friend in Launceston had just left Tassie on Tuesday morning..not morning but dawn wtf! The reason is very simple..like any other girl/lady/woman would..to live happily ever after with her hubby. He works in Cairns so the last time they met was during Christmas. They were practically in a distance relationship for quite something but the painful experience has come to an end. She's leaving Tassie for good! I still remember her telling me that they usually eat in front of the webcam and talk 24/7 ....very very loving couple aren't they? =))))

I'm going to miss speaking Hokkien with Esther though my Hokkien sucks so much these days! Your cheerfulness, sense of humour and helpfulness all these while will no longer to be seen anymore at this place T____________T I MISS YOU girlfriend!!!!!

We threw her a farewell lunch at Pierre's on Monday. Nice place to dine-in..good setting and atmosphere..good food...fantastic wine list! Esther's farewell pressie was a pair of lovely swarovski sea horse from Swarovski (DUH!!) that Stan and I bought for her. Bobby and Krista gave her this nice digital photo key ring. Now she can look at our pictures everyday!!!!!

My blog must end with at least one picture of me and my baby =p

Weather is turning cold in Tassie now must dig out all the thick jumpers..... T___T

Keep yourself warm alrighty?

Old Friend and old neighbour

I have been away from the world of internet for almost 3 weeks.....gosh that was loooong!


First thing i did was checking my e-mail and the next thing FACEBOOK! I usually have one or 2 friend requests if i do not log in too often and hahaha i got a few..some are really old friends from high school but some are just random people =p


I usually ignore random people..for instance those whom i have only 1 friend in common...memang random! But that was this guy which i tried to ignore the request but i accidentally accepted it ahhhhhh!!! I thought okay la i'll delete it at a later time but then he wrote on my wall a few hours after that. I went okay let's see what he wrote and this is it:


''hey, hi...never thought that i'd bump into u again...lolz...how r u? hows ur mom n dad?''


I went what the tutti frutti...!!!! Why the heck is he asking about my mom and dad? Are we that close?I don't think so........after thinking for a while and looking at his picture again and again...i finally remember hahahaha! The shy and quiet boy staying opposite granny's house! And the funny thing is even though i have known him since i was 14 we actually NEVER talk to each other..not even once T_______T We only know each other by the fact that we are just neighbours thats it! How odd things were at that time....

Gary was a friend whom i knew in my Form 2 Science tuition class. I did not know he was the neighbour... i only know we had something in common haha we wore the same pair of slippers. Gary's mom used to baby sit my aunt's youngest son and that was how i found out Gary was my granny's neighbour. My aunt used to tease both of us (not at the same time) because she thinks Gary is tall, nice and quiet hahaha! The truth is he's not that quiet as everyone thought he is in fact he's very talkative during tuition class so my impression towards him was not really great at that time. He never talks to me why why why but he kept talking to my best friend who is just sitting next to me. I remember clearly he told my aunt he was worried that i might mistakenly wearing his slippers, thinking that would be my pair of slippers wtf! The size is so different i would definitely be able to differentiate them unless i'm blind wtf! Please do not get me wrong Gary i was not mad at you la...

And yes that is how we know each other..without talking to each other..and after so many years he found me on facebook and added me. I was flattered for one second and then i realized it is a good sign actually. It actually proofs that we have all grown up..he still looks the same tall and thin. The good thing is he said i look great =)))))))))) i was flattered once again hahahaha!!!!

Oh well i came to realize that even though you were once mommy's boy or girl, after you left home you learn to grow up, be independent and make the right choices in life. No matter how rebellious you were when young, one day you are going to be a great person =p I'm a very good example but i'm not that great la okay...at least mommy does not have to worry about me anymore..no more tears rolling down her cheeks...no more sleepless nights...i'm really proud of myself =)))))) *self pats head*

Happy Birthday Daddy! May you have a wonderful birthday and many more to come! Many many happy returns of the day!!! Have a good one readers!

You've got message

I have a few words to say to a few people =)


Congratulations to my sister, Irene who gave birth to an adorable baby boy last Friday morning. You will need many blue clothes, a blue pram and millions of nappies for Baby Jonathan =p I'll bring more presents the next time i visit you okie dok?


Congratulations (a belated one) to my brother whose wife gave birth to a baby boy as well last December. Baby Felix is his name *meow* and he is very very the chubby! The next time i see you i think you're gonna be one years old plus =)))


Jean, sorry i did not actually say goodbye before you left Launceston last week. Work work work. I will catch up with you on MSN ok? I'm sure job hunting would not be a problem to you!


Pris, how are you girlfriend?? I see you're missing the cold weather in Tassie. Do not look back this place is sad ok? Brisbane is obviously a better place. Finally, i get to know you si tao por. She's a very nice lady. She keeps telling me you're a very lovely girl. I told her yes you are but you can be mean sometimes =p

Cherlyn i miss you too..as you know i always do haha! I know you've been working very hard since day 1 but must eat and sleep well. Working 7 days a week you're my superwoman! Go girl!!!! I want to visit both you and Pris but i guess you girls are really busy working so we shall plan it again la.

For Hae DO NOT LEAVE LAUNNIE...i know that's not gonna happen right? You're such good companion all these while to everybody as you may have already known =)))) When you come back to Australia must let me know. Good luck with your thesis!! I'm not counting down the days you're leaving this place for you NEVER T_____T

Yowie good luck with your thesis too! Concentrate 100% and be strong! It's gonna be over real soon right? I know how much you wanna leave this place..oh well i would say okay.......

To all my friends in Malaysia, whether you're working very hard, whether you're studying, your life is sad or glamourous..single or attached....i miss everyone times infinity =))))) Even if i hardly talk to anybody these days i just wanna tell all of you bear with me bear with the time..i will be back.......one fine day......

Have a great day!

Early Valentine's Day Dinner

Date: 02/02/09
Time: 6.30pm (Time zone i dont know)
Location: Stillwater River Cafe/ Restaurant/Wine Bar, Launceston, Tasmania
Victims: Stanley Tso and Ivy Eng

Valentine's Day falls on the 14th of February every year (DUH!!!!!) i mean the ang mo calendar okay...but both me and Stan have to serve loving couples who would be dining at the MW Restaurant on that very Saturday evening, we decided to go out for a table-for-two dinner at Tasmania's Best Fine Dining Restaurant *all applause*

We had a three-course A la Carte meal each, from entree to main and to sweet!

Japanese style rare seared Angus beef with ginger, mint and radish salad, toasted sesame and seaweed, warm ponzu dressing

Japanese Inspired Tian (green lip abalone, scallops, octopus with dashi jelly)

Salmon loin sprinkled with crushed pepper, served with mashed potatoe and pea moussealine

Ravioli of Harris Farm rabbit served with garlic sauce

Stillwater "Ecstacy" Plate: hazelnut mousse, mint jelly and passionfruit semi-freddo topped with brandy strawberry

Stillwater assiette of sweets: Belgian chocolate, layered brulee of honeycomb and orange syrup and sofeit with straps of mint and strawberries

Dinner was absolutely fantastic! Gorgeous!!!! Especially the sweet..........you will love it girls!

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Gong xi fatt choy!!!! Oh well i miss home again........

What a dream!

I have been having weird dreams for the past few days...i know someone has been cursing me *sneeze sneeze* How dare you!

My facebook message went like ' I dreamt of my fingers being burnt by another friend' wtf! I was not scared of that person and i do not see the fella coming to burn my fingers or my hair la. However, the weird thing is why i dreamt of Mr. G. Since high school i always know one thing, friends come and go just like that. You do not have to have many friends, one true friend beats them all. You may not agree even i do not sometimes but it's quite true. Betrayal, heart broken moments.............

I have been friends with Mr. G for years already. I know him through a friend. Of course nobody's perfect and Mr. G has bad times, bad temper which nobody would ever wanna witness. I'm only a very regular than a regular friend to Mr. G but he always tell me and other people i'm his younger sister. At times when i was upset over something he always make sure that i'm okay and he tried to make me look at the bright side. Unfortunately, due to some misunderstandings he's no longer a friend anymore. Somebody's been telling him stuffs about me wtf! It's quite sad to know that when you did not do anything wrong, people start hating you, spreading the news around trying to make you famous for undecent stuffs....wtf!!! What is wrong with you! Thanks a whole lot to the bitches and bastards and now i dreamt of him coming to burn my fingers lalalalala....next time he'll probably come and burn down my house!!

I'm still looking for a job.....it's getting difficult these days..wrong timing and low qualifications what a mess! Cherlyn you're sooo lucky and of course you're smart okay *hugz*

Oh ya i'm challenging myself with 1000-pieces puzzle with no puzzle picture provided. They give you clues but not the real picture...the progress is still good still good hahahha! See how bored i am at this stage and i have to find something to kill time before i become a statue or mushrooms grown all over me T___________T

Back to my puzzle game bye !

Disastrous

Okay i know i've been missing in action..bear with me for a couple of weeks and i will be back for some posts...

Got tonnes of things to do..working...packing my stuffs prepare to move out ( i HATE doing this, countless times i've been moving a year after another =_='') paying my bills....house-hunting...and shit loads of unnecessary things to do wtf!

I did not wish anybody Merry X'mas or Happy New year despite all the messages i received. I'm deeply sorry pai seh la okay? Now Happy New Year Happy 'niu' (cow) year everyone!!!!!!!

To my girl friend in Queensland, don't get too stressed out...job seeking in our field isn't easy unlike *ehem ehem* You'll find one very soon i believe...see i'm jobless too and i'm still trying! Okay no more si tao por that kind of thing okay...my money got sweat and blood too hehe! Remember be confident!!!!!

That's all for today,,totally boring and random so don't read!!

Bye!